Thoughts

I've been doing alot of soul searching and pondering the last few weeks with the upcoming life altering experience of bringing my daughter into this world and becoming a Mother for the first time...Sometimes in the quietest moments of my day, I can't help but feel a tremendous amount of love and strength from my Heavenly Father. I know he hears and answers my prayers. He loves me. I know he would NEVER give me a trial I was uncapable of overcoming. I know that getting pregnant out of wedlock isn't the most ideal situation, especially because of how I was raised, but I wouldn't trade this experience for anything. I honestly feel as if my baby girl was meant to come to me at this time in my life because I need her. He has trusted me with one of his most precious children and I feel honored to be Saije's Mom. I can't even describe the life lessons, big and small, I have learned in the past 6 months alone and I credit them all to this trial in my life. I am so thankful for the endless number of tender mercies from my Heavenly Father. A simple "kick" or case of the "hiccups" can change my whole day. A song on the radio. A rainbow after the rain. The feeling of warmth I feel in my heart when I look at Saije's ultrasound pictures. I feel extremely blessed that Saije and I have remained healthy, despite the scare a few weeks ago. I have been blessed with the greatest family on the face of the Earth! The last couple years we haven't been the closest because of several things, but every single time it's REALLY mattered that they were there for me, they were. Especially my Mom. She has been my best friend the past couple months and has been there for me every step of the way during this pregnancy, even when it wasn't convenient! She took such great care of me when I was on bedrest after getting out of the hospital. She made sure I ate enough and entertained me the best she could that entire week. She also made several trips to/from Burley to Ogden to be there with me at Dr. appointments. I can really appreciate and feel of her "Mother's Love" as I prepare to share that same love with my precious baby girl in just a few short weeks. At the end of the day, when all the crap and "BS" is over, it's those still standing in your corner who REALLY love you. Those are the people I want in my life and in my daughter's life. Thank you to everyone who has made a difference in my life and supported me through all of this. Words can never truly explain the difference it has made.

Thanks to all!